Anxiety can sometimes trap me in my own head, making it hard to focus on what is going on in the outside world. Depression causes me to become disconnected, and similarly distracted from what is going on around me. Both of them mess with my sleep, and the ensuing fatigue makes it even harder to concentrate at times. As it is the last day of the month, I thought it’d be interesting to look back on all the mistakes I’ve made in a mental health induced fog.
- Tried to make coffee without adding coffee, thus succeeding in making hot water.
- Missed a stop sign and got into a car accident (see The Dark Tales of Boom-Smash).
- Started laundry without adding detergent.
- Walked completely past my car in the parking lot of the train station.
- Tried to send an email with out putting an email address into the “To” field.
- Tried to drive my car without putting it in drive (but hey, at least the engine sounded great).
And I get it, everyone has distracted or tired moments where they do something like this, but for me it just feeds into the struggles I have in my daily battles, and I assume that everyone is judging me for it. But the key, regardless of where you fall on the mental health spectrum, is to forgive yourself and try again. Because mental illness is frustrating, and it presents certain limitations for sure, but that doesn’t mean you have to let it defeat you.