Today is Thanksgiving. The day we give thanks. And I know that at some point today my grandmother will ask what we are thankful for. So, I figured I’d get a head start on the question and put some of my thoughts down here.
In past years, years when the darkness was all around me, this question was a real challenge. It was something I had to prepare for because I didn’t feel like I had an honest answer I could ever give. This year I can give thanks, even in the darkness.
I am thankful for my family and friends, people I know will be there to support me, even when the lies of my mental illnesses try to convince me otherwise. I am thankful for the fact that I am still here, that I survived the darkness, and continue to survive the nights when the darkness returns and my own mind turns against me. Giving thanks for health isn’t something to take for granted, at least not for me, not given the possibility that I could have ever let the darkness win.
I am thankful for the sound of rain when I am laying in bed. I am thankful for zombie movies, and four-legged friends, and ghost stories, and all the things that add spice to life.
And I am thankful for this site. I am thankful that I have the opportunity to educate others about this horrible illness, that I am able to connect with others who battle through the darkness and let them know they aren’t alone while also reminding myself of that fact.
And I am thankful for you, the readers who make this worth it. Even if I’ve never met you, I am thankful for you. And wherever you are, I hope you have things that you can give thanks for, even if it is as simple as rain on the rooftop. Don’t overlook those simple things that you can give thanks for. In the darkness, those things can pull you through. And that is truly something to be thankful for.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone.