It Is Like Life Is Becoming A Metaphor for My Mental Illnesses

Life has been weird in 2020. There is no doubt about that. Yet the more life rolls along, the more it seems like one giant metaphor for life with my mental illnesses. Let me explain. I battle with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. And these mental illnesses have shaped my personality, turning me […]

The Stormy Seas of Depression

I want to build upon the ocean theme I talked about yesterday. Specifically, I want to talk about when the waves of depression aren’t rogue and unexpected but instead build as part of a storm. As I mentioned yesterday, I am just coming out of a depressive episode. And while some depressive episodes are like […]

The Rogue Wave of Depression

I went to a maritime school, full of future ocean-going mariners. I wasn’t among the ocean-goers though. Don’t get me wrong, I love being on the water, but I care more about observing ocean wildlife than driving the boat, and I care about both more than being down in the engine room. There is nothing […]

What Is Serotonin Syndrome

In yesterday’s Medication Monday post I talked about the risk of serotonin syndrome as one of the side effects of the specific antidepressant I was talking about. Today I want to explain serotonin syndrome. Serotonin syndrome is a condition where there is too much serotonin in the body. It is often caused when one overdoses […]

Medication Monday: Viibryd

This week’s Medication Monday is looking at Viibryd (Vilazodone), which is approved to treat Major Depressive Disorder (MDD). Like other antidepressants, there is a danger for those who have bipolar disorder because the medication may cause mania. If you are concerned about possibly suffering from bipolar disorder instead of major depressive disorder, you should consult […]

When I Am The Only One I Trust And I Still Fail

It is difficult for me to trust. Part of that is because of past occasions when I have been burned and part of it is the lies of my mental illness. As such, when I need something done, it is hard because I struggle to let myself trust someone else to do it, even though […]

When Everything is Too Slow or Too Fast

Time likely seems strange to everyone these days, courtesy of the Coronavirus. However, time playing tricks on me, or more accurately mental illness playing tricks with time, is nothing new to me. So often, it will seem like I have all the time in the world, so my mental illness lies to me and tells […]