Don’t Poke The Demon. And By Poke I Mean Compliment

This week has been rough for me. So you might think that when a client offered unsolicited compliments on my work for my new supervisor, it would have been welcome. It wasn’t.  Depressive episodes make you doubt everything, even whether you’d ever be happy again. Even if you know these are lies, you still can’t […]

Demon Dreams

  A couple nights ago, I had a dream I was being chased by an amorphic shadow monster, one that tortured and killed anyone who got in its way. I’ve had this dream before. And while I am no expert in dream reading, I can’t think of a more accurate nightmare that depicts the darkness […]

Can I Get a Little Boost? Please?

Yesterday, I asked for clarity, both in the form of new glasses and in the form of a better understanding of my mental illnesses. Today, I am asking for a little boost, a little more energy to get through the day. Because each day I seem to end up a little short and each morning […]

Can I Get Some Clarity. Please?

Today, I had an eye doctor’s appointment to get a new prescription and some new glasses. My current glasses are showing a bit too much damage from 7 years of use, which includes falling asleep on them more often than I care to admit. And as I think about it, I realize that my vision […]

From the Shores of Cuba, To the Shores of Lake Michigan

Mental illness is a complex ailment. It is different for everyone, and we still don’t completely understand why it develops in the first place. There is evidence it is genetic. There is evidence it is environmental. Maybe it is a combination of these factors. Maybe it is something else. Maybe someday we will unlock the […]

Bursts of Creative Light, Shrouded In Darkness

I love to write, and I feel like everyday I come up with one or two ideas that I think would make a good story. The problem is I also struggle with depression and anxiety, horrid demons that rob me of motivation to do anything, even the things that I love. And even when I […]