Data and Depression

On Saturday, I talked about how time passes when struggling through a depressive episode or when struggling with severe anxiety. Accordingly, it can be very hard to stay mindful of how you feel and when you felt it during these times. Luckily, there is an app for that. There are actually many apps for that, but […]

Day-To-Night-To-Day

Time. It doesn’t end, no matter how much you want it to. Yet in the darkness, it passes unnoticed, seconds and minutes and hours blurring together until you don’t even know what day it is. Or else you just don’t care.  You sit down. A thought catches you, and next thing you know you’re laying […]

Don’t Poke The Demon. And By Poke I Mean Compliment

This week has been rough for me. So you might think that when a client offered unsolicited compliments on my work for my new supervisor, it would have been welcome. It wasn’t.  Depressive episodes make you doubt everything, even whether you’d ever be happy again. Even if you know these are lies, you still can’t […]

Demon Dreams

  A couple nights ago, I had a dream I was being chased by an amorphic shadow monster, one that tortured and killed anyone who got in its way. I’ve had this dream before. And while I am no expert in dream reading, I can’t think of a more accurate nightmare that depicts the darkness […]

Can I Get a Little Boost? Please?

Yesterday, I asked for clarity, both in the form of new glasses and in the form of a better understanding of my mental illnesses. Today, I am asking for a little boost, a little more energy to get through the day. Because each day I seem to end up a little short and each morning […]

Can I Get Some Clarity. Please?

Today, I had an eye doctor’s appointment to get a new prescription and some new glasses. My current glasses are showing a bit too much damage from 7 years of use, which includes falling asleep on them more often than I care to admit. And as I think about it, I realize that my vision […]