Back Into The Fray

The first day back after a long weekend is never easy, regardless of whether you struggle with a mental illness or not. For those who don’t struggle, it can be hard to pull yourself away from the bed after getting to sleep in the last few days. For me though, going back into the fray […]

Lawson’s Lesson

It isn’t easy for me to be honest about my battle with mental illness. It was a journey for me to get here, a journey traveled in booze and beers and tears and joy and heartbreak and so much more. On my journey, I traveled through dark, paralyzing places and palaces in my mind. And […]

Data and Depression

On Saturday, I talked about how time passes when struggling through a depressive episode or when struggling with severe anxiety. Accordingly, it can be very hard to stay mindful of how you feel and when you felt it during these times. Luckily, there is an app for that. There are actually many apps for that, but […]

Day-To-Night-To-Day

Time. It doesn’t end, no matter how much you want it to. Yet in the darkness, it passes unnoticed, seconds and minutes and hours blurring together until you don’t even know what day it is. Or else you just don’t care.  You sit down. A thought catches you, and next thing you know you’re laying […]

Don’t Poke The Demon. And By Poke I Mean Compliment

This week has been rough for me. So you might think that when a client offered unsolicited compliments on my work for my new supervisor, it would have been welcome. It wasn’t.  Depressive episodes make you doubt everything, even whether you’d ever be happy again. Even if you know these are lies, you still can’t […]

Demon Dreams

  A couple nights ago, I had a dream I was being chased by an amorphic shadow monster, one that tortured and killed anyone who got in its way. I’ve had this dream before. And while I am no expert in dream reading, I can’t think of a more accurate nightmare that depicts the darkness […]