Ranic Attacks

I have never suffered a full blown panic attack. However, I do sometimes suffer ranic attacks. Don’t know what those are? That’s okay, neither did spell check. Probably because I just made it up. Ranic attacks are a combination of rage and panic. They usually happen when I am stuck at work or stuck in […]

Does This Look Right?

My office is letting employees wear their favorite football gear today, a tip of the hat to the start of the NFL season. So, I dug out an old football jersey and put it on because it is a lot more comfortable than the normal business casual attire I’m supposed to wear. And don’t get […]

I’m Not Being Defensive, It’s Just My Mental Illnesses

Mental illnesses can be incredibly isolating, and can make you feel like you are the only one fucking shit up. At least that is the case for me. Even though I know that making mistakes is human, I feel like every mistake I make is glaring and obvious, and that the whole world is judging […]

Anxiety’s Restless Acts

It can be hard for me to stay still. If you are talking to me, it is more likely than not that I am bouncing my foot or tapping my fingers or something similar. When I am thinking through a problem, I’ll often take to pacing around the room, although I’ve learned not to do this […]

The Future and the Fear

I have struggled with mental illnesses since I was in middle school. Anxiety was the main bully of my mind, but occasionally it brought its buddy depression. I didn’t fit in, and my separation made me an easy target for kids to ridicule because kids will be kids and kids can be absolutely awful. And […]

The Sound of Silence

I am lucky that I can wear headphones when I’m in my office, so long as there isn’t a client visiting that day. Music and podcasts are essential to helping me get through some of the more mundane parts of my job. Yet sometimes the headphones are simply a barrier between me and the rest […]