Breaking the Broken

These past few days have featured a lot of travel. That travel has taken me to familiar places and unfamiliar places, places I probably wouldn’t have gone if left to my own devices. Who am I kidding, if left to my own devices my social anxiety would keep me in the house. My brain is […]

2009 v 2019: A Story of Two Smiles

You may have noticed some people on social media posting photos of themselves from 2009 and 2019. I’ve commented on this before, but these 10-year challenges are an excellent chance to reflect. As such, here are my photos.    Maybe it isn’t visible to anyone else, but behind those smiles I see very different stories.  […]

Restlessly Restful Weekend

This weekend I am not letting my social anxiety win. I am leaving my house. For the whole weekend. Woohoo! Specifically, I am taking a mini-weekend trip to Milwaukee with my wife and some friends. And though I often prefer to rest and recover in the comfort of my own home, this restlessly restful weekend […]

Ranic Attacks

I have never suffered a full blown panic attack. However, I do sometimes suffer ranic attacks. Don’t know what those are? That’s okay, neither did spell check. Probably because I just made it up. Ranic attacks are a combination of rage and panic. They usually happen when I am stuck at work or stuck in […]

Does This Look Right?

My office is letting employees wear their favorite football gear today, a tip of the hat to the start of the NFL season. So, I dug out an old football jersey and put it on because it is a lot more comfortable than the normal business casual attire I’m supposed to wear. And don’t get […]

I’m Not Being Defensive, It’s Just My Mental Illnesses

Mental illnesses can be incredibly isolating, and can make you feel like you are the only one fucking shit up. At least that is the case for me. Even though I know that making mistakes is human, I feel like every mistake I make is glaring and obvious, and that the whole world is judging […]

Anxiety’s Restless Acts

It can be hard for me to stay still. If you are talking to me, it is more likely than not that I am bouncing my foot or tapping my fingers or something similar. When I am thinking through a problem, I’ll often take to pacing around the room, although I’ve learned not to do this […]