Disabled. Broken. (And Me)

I am in the process of seeking an accommodation from my employer for my anxiety and depressive disorders under the Americans With Disabilities Act (ADA). And the impostor syndrome I talked about yesterday can’t get past the word disabled. Disabled. Broken. And me. It doesn’t seem to fit. After all, I can walk and run […]

The Unsocial Media

As an introvert with social anxiety issues, I find social media to be a wonderful creation. When the world gets to be too much, I can stay connected while curling up and hiding from the physical world. Yet it can also be extremely dangerous because it, like mental illness, lies to you.  People don’t typically […]

My Darkest Tale

This post is a struggle for me. But it is a struggle that is worth winning. That I need to win. Not facing it will only give my demons respite from my attempts to oust them from the shadows of my mind. Yesterday my therapist and I revisited my darkest tale, my worst bout of […]

The Undefined King, General, Warrior. And Me

Men. We’re more likely to commit suicide and less likely to seek help or find ourselves in a therapist’s office. And why? While there are many factors, a big part if it is because of a societally constructed view of gender roles. A view of gender roles that is so misguided that it seems to […]

Let Me Tell You A Story. If I Can.

The struggle with mental illness is a journey, a journey that can be told through a story, if only the words existed for such a dark tale. Honestly, I love good storytelling. It is a true art form when done right. Yet the struggle with mental illness is illogical. It has no flow. It has […]

Dark Tales from the Thin Blue Line

Most of the posts on this page are accounts of  my personal struggles with mental health issues. Today though, I want to take a moment to tell the story of another group of people. Police. According to the nonprofit Blue H.E.L.P, 165 police officers took their own lives in 2018, more than all line-of-duty deaths […]

Stigma. And Suicide. And Silence.

I have never been actively suicidal, but I have thought about it. I have never wanted to die, but in the past I haven’t cared about living. As I’ve said before, one of the biggest things that stopped me from being actively suicidal was that I didn’t want to be a burden to the people […]