2009 v 2019: A Story of Two Smiles

You may have noticed some people on social media posting photos of themselves from 2009 and 2019. I’ve commented on this before, but these 10-year challenges are an excellent chance to reflect. As such, here are my photos.    Maybe it isn’t visible to anyone else, but behind those smiles I see very different stories.  […]

Dissociation and Depression

As I mentioned yesterday, the last few weeks have been rough for me and my depression. This depressive episode came with all the typical symptoms of depression, and one added one: dissociation. According to the Mayo Clinic, dissociation involves, “experiencing a disconnection and lack of continuity between thoughts, memories, surroundings, actions and identity.” The common […]

Staring Contests With My Therapist

My therapist, well all the therapists that I’ve seen, have an annoying habit of just staring at me when I say something. It is like they want me to go deeper into the issues I am having. Sometimes I try to have a staring contest with them, but I never win. With my current therapist, […]

Filling the Darkness

Depression is a darkness. It is an emptiness within. It is the place where your joy and your interests and your ability to engage with the world once existed, but depression steals those things away. And in its place it leaves an empty darkness. This emptiness, this darkness, it isn’t how humans are supposed to […]

Tough Talk

Therapy can be hard. You are expected to open up about you darkness and let a stranger see your demons. It can rip open wounds you had been trying to ignore. It is tough talk, but it is necessary. Yesterday I had my regular therapy session. We talked about one of the issues that is […]

The Season for SAD

The days are getting shorter. The weather is getting colder. Furnaces are coming out of their summer stupor and sweaters are reemerging from the closet. Winter is coming, the season of SAD, or seasonal affective disorder.  The DSM-V specifies that it is a disorder marked by symptoms of major depressive disorder occurring during the winter […]

Breaking the Brain

The brain needs to be treated like any other muscle. You hear that all the time growing up when your parents are trying to get you to do your homework. At least, I heard it all the time growing up, but maybe that is just me. And biologically I don’t know if there is truth […]