The Stormy Seas of Depression

I want to build upon the ocean theme I talked about yesterday. Specifically, I want to talk about when the waves of depression aren’t rogue and unexpected but instead build as part of a storm. As I mentioned yesterday, I am just coming out of a depressive episode. And while some depressive episodes are like […]

Forming An Alliance With My Darkness

I write a lot about my darkness, my mental illness, the depression and anxiety that make my life a struggle. Frankly, these mental illnesses suck, and I wouldn’t wish them on anyone. They have thrown curveballs into my personal relationships, screwed with my sleep, trapped me in a world of terror that only I know, […]

Translating Negativity into Positivity. Or At Least Trying

I talked yesterday about how I set myself up for failure time and time again by believing the negative language that mental illness whispers in my ear. Today, I want to talk about how to translate that negativity into positivity.   This is an important step for me in challenging the lies of mental illness. […]

When My Demons Torment From the Shadows

Yesterday I felt the unmistakable tightness of anxiety rising within. As someone with an anxiety disorder, I was plenty familiar with the feeling. However, in most cases, I can identify where the feeling comes from. That was not the case last night. Don’t get me wrong, there is certainly no shortage of things to be […]

The Feeling. The Fear

I struggle to describe depression. It isn’t just sadness. It is more. It is deeper. It is an emptiness that hurts so much. It feels like something has been cut out of you. And you can’t move. Or breath. Or think. It is all just too exhausting.  And the point comes when it is really […]

Bringing Light to the Darkness

I don’t really know what to write here. I don’t know how to translate my feelings of depression onto a page. Or perhaps it is more accurate to say that my depression doesn’t like having a light shined on it. I talked in a previous post about how, in the midst of the darkness, you […]