Bringing Light to the Darkness

I don’t really know what to write here. I don’t know how to translate my feelings of depression onto a page. Or perhaps it is more accurate to say that my depression doesn’t like having a light shined on it. I talked in a previous post about how, in the midst of the darkness, you […]

Don’t Poke The Demon. And By Poke I Mean Compliment

This week has been rough for me. So you might think that when a client offered unsolicited compliments on my work for my new supervisor, it would have been welcome. It wasn’t.  Depressive episodes make you doubt everything, even whether you’d ever be happy again. Even if you know these are lies, you still can’t […]

The Dark Days. The Hidden Light

Yesterday, I alluded to the fact that I am currently in a depressive episode, one that was preceded by shadowy nightmares.  Well, the shadows caught me. I lie in them at 4:30 this morning, having only slid into an uneasy sleep about 4 hours earlier. Four hours is about the best I can hope for […]

Demon Dreams

  A couple nights ago, I had a dream I was being chased by an amorphic shadow monster, one that tortured and killed anyone who got in its way. I’ve had this dream before. And while I am no expert in dream reading, I can’t think of a more accurate nightmare that depicts the darkness […]

Struggling for Power in the Darkness

There are terrible things about having any illness, mental or physical. And while the struggle of those suffering physical ailments might be obvious, the battle of mental health sufferers is silent, a battle with demons only we can see. And who has the power in that internal battle can determine a lot about how the […]

When Mental Health Gets Physical

Mental illness might be a chemical imbalance in your brain, but given how connected your brain and body are, mental health can often become physical. This is that story. The first chapter of the story is a look at some of the physical symptoms of mental illness. But before I can get into those, I […]