The Rogue Wave of Depression

I went to a maritime school, full of future ocean-going mariners. I wasn’t among the ocean-goers though. Don’t get me wrong, I love being on the water, but I care more about observing ocean wildlife than driving the boat, and I care about both more than being down in the engine room. There is nothing […]

When I Am The Only One I Trust And I Still Fail

It is difficult for me to trust. Part of that is because of past occasions when I have been burned and part of it is the lies of my mental illness. As such, when I need something done, it is hard because I struggle to let myself trust someone else to do it, even though […]

When Everything is Too Slow or Too Fast

Time likely seems strange to everyone these days, courtesy of the Coronavirus. However, time playing tricks on me, or more accurately mental illness playing tricks with time, is nothing new to me. So often, it will seem like I have all the time in the world, so my mental illness lies to me and tells […]

Forming An Alliance With My Darkness

I write a lot about my darkness, my mental illness, the depression and anxiety that make my life a struggle. Frankly, these mental illnesses suck, and I wouldn’t wish them on anyone. They have thrown curveballs into my personal relationships, screwed with my sleep, trapped me in a world of terror that only I know, […]

Cat-tastic Solutions to Writer’s Block

As I was sitting here, trying to decide what to write about today, Ginny cat “helped” by running across the keyboard. And you know what, she is right. I mean sure, she just wrote gibberish, but she didn’t hesitate to put paws to the keyboard so that she could find out what comes out. Either […]

Recovery

Let’s face it, the last few weeks have been tough on so many of us. So I think we could all use some positivity wherever and whenever we can get, which is why today I want to talk about recovery. As an initial thought, I want to point out that recovery from mental illness does […]

When The Demons Fight Back It Means You Are On The Right Road

The demons of mental illness are devilishly tricky opponents. They hide in the shadows of your mind, whispering lies that are impossibly believable. And when you go to therapy, when you open up to loved ones, when you try to shine a light on them, it is uncomfortable, and often leaves you feeling raw and […]