Hide and Seek with My Demons

In the past year, I’ve been working very hard on mindfulness, on my therapy, and on untangling the roots of my mental health struggles. And as I get closer to shining a light on my demons, they seem elusive, and I find myself trapped in a game of hide and seek with my demons. And […]

A Demon Has No Name

They call it depression. As if it is just a little dip in your mood. A mild blahness that will pass uneventfully. But really that is such a ridiculously laughable name for it. It is a demon, a darkness, a horror so all encompassing that thousands of people literally think death is preferable. When I […]

Looking Back on Mental Health Awareness Month

Today brings Mental Health Awareness Month to a close. Of course, for mental health advocates, the mission of spreading awareness and combating the stigma surrounding mental illness will continue long after the calendar pages flip. But in the meantime it is important to look back on what this year’s awareness month brought. Close to home […]

The Undefined King, General, Warrior. And Me

Men. We’re more likely to commit suicide and less likely to seek help or find ourselves in a therapist’s office. And why? While there are many factors, a big part if it is because of a societally constructed view of gender roles. A view of gender roles that is so misguided that it seems to […]

The Dark Tales of Others

I try to be honest about my struggles with mental illnesses for two reasons. First, because it is therapeutic for me. It forces me to examine my demons in a way that only pouring them into words can accomplish. It gives me new perspective. Sometimes that wounds me more. Overall though it is definitely for […]

Whispers In The Dark

It has been several months of this little experiment of mine. Several months of trying to tell the story of the demons I struggle with, the demons that are my mental illness. When I started being this open about my struggles, I thought people would turn away, or not be interested. When I had bad […]

Stigma. And Suicide. And Silence.

I have never been actively suicidal, but I have thought about it. I have never wanted to die, but in the past I haven’t cared about living. As I’ve said before, one of the biggest things that stopped me from being actively suicidal was that I didn’t want to be a burden to the people […]