When Tomorrow Invades Tonight

Last night was a night that many with anxiety would probably find familiar. It was a night where the worries of tomorrow invaded the night. Actually, if I am being honest it was a night when tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that and so on invaded the night. Each worry […]

Mental Health and Money

I am by no means an economist, but in true American fashion, I am now going to proceed to talk about something I have little expertise. That isn’t entirely true. Because this post isn’t about how to manage your money, but about money and mental illness. And while I may not have the most financial […]

Pets: Pawful Little Pals

I cannot say enough for the power of pets. They don’t judge you. They don’t expect you to be anything more than a warm lap and a filler of bowls, and even in the darkness, you can manage that. Especially in the darkness.  Because when you are struggling sometimes all it takes is a snuggle […]

Dissociation and Depression

As I mentioned yesterday, the last few weeks have been rough for me and my depression. This depressive episode came with all the typical symptoms of depression, and one added one: dissociation. According to the Mayo Clinic, dissociation involves, “experiencing a disconnection and lack of continuity between thoughts, memories, surroundings, actions and identity.” The common […]

Staring Contests With My Therapist

My therapist, well all the therapists that I’ve seen, have an annoying habit of just staring at me when I say something. It is like they want me to go deeper into the issues I am having. Sometimes I try to have a staring contest with them, but I never win. With my current therapist, […]

Filling the Darkness

Depression is a darkness. It is an emptiness within. It is the place where your joy and your interests and your ability to engage with the world once existed, but depression steals those things away. And in its place it leaves an empty darkness. This emptiness, this darkness, it isn’t how humans are supposed to […]

Tough Talk

Therapy can be hard. You are expected to open up about you darkness and let a stranger see your demons. It can rip open wounds you had been trying to ignore. It is tough talk, but it is necessary. Yesterday I had my regular therapy session. We talked about one of the issues that is […]